I’m a neurodivergent, asocial person. Always have been. Though i still have had a few friends during my life. I managed to get by for a while with just the 2-3 people I talk to, but recently I’ve started to get really lonely. The way i’ve made friends in the past has been someone approaching me, not the other way around though. I don’t know how to make friends/acquaintances with other people on my own. Me growing up with the internet probably played a role in my lack of real life social skills, i’m guessing
I can talk ok but I do not know how to approach someone, acknowledge them without being first acknowledged, or build relationships let alone looking most people in the eye without getting pretty anxious. Even when I’m lucky not to initiate I’ve only felt “connected” to people for very brief moments.