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  • Anne_Teefa@hexbear.net
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    10 months ago

    If only it was actually happening. Would love to make their delusions reality, not so much to justify their behavior but to punish them for it.

    seggs talk, opinion on cuckoldry, me being a smol pp h8r (trust me it's probably fine, I make joke)

    Just wish they’d stop ruining a kink of mine… Like I’m down to share, swing, and be poly but to be entirely replaced sexually would be frustrating and might actually end the relationship but if I’m involved enough I wouldn’t mind not being the primary. If whomever my hypothetical bf, gf, whatever, was seeing, wanted to rail me too and or was inclusive and not there to just cut me off from intimacy, and was there to enhance the experience for all, then it’s all gravy. If I’m replaced sexually, but otherwise we’re still very intimate and there isn’t this feeling of growing apart between me and my partner then I could see about salvaging the relationship and seeing how they’d like to have me involved as long as I’m not just strictly relegated to a corner. Like maybe I’ll squeeze this or that, make out, just help keep it going, idk, compersion is a hell of a thing and watching someone being fucked irl is so much different than in porn and I don’t even mean strictly as a cuckold but even as a threesome it’s hot as fuck. I think my hard boundaries are just no fascists (low-key… Maybe a comrade who shares what I guess I would describe as penis fascism, AND they’re packing more than me [not super common tbh, part off the thrill I suppose, usually when they’re bigger they’re monstrous and it’s just 😩] , so long as that’s the extent of their porn brainworms) and if I get the chance to explore that sexual space again I’ll do better about voicing some soft boundaries or things that bother me as they come up. (I’m way to much of a people pleaser and will just stay quiet and bottle things up, gotta work on that.) But the idea that (((the blacks))) are coming to forcefully cuck you kinda gives me the impression that you might not treat your partner well enough and she wants better from someone else and your kinda letting that known by how you think cuckoldry is and how it works; that your wife/partner is small/weak minded and a strong charismatic man can manipulate her into leaving you for him, instead of her having enough of your caucacity on the daily and deciding maybe enough is enough and or wanting to explore herself sexually, who knows it could be a myriad of reasons. While there are narcissists and they can be manipulative and they do use sex as a manipulative tool, it is not a monolith or hallmark of one race. There is a rainbow (wow how fitting almost like the pride flag was on to something) of how people feel, act, and have intimacy and would like to engage in intimacy; to think it’s a single minded goal to snuff out the hwite race is silly and if it’s that fragile, idk maybe it’s too weak to survive, survival of the fittest yada yada.

    Anyways… Self hating honky with too many programmed societal brainworms, signing off. Hoo-Rah! 07

    • ShimmeringKoi [comrade/them]@hexbear.net
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      10 months ago

      Damn that’s a really good point, why wouldn’t they see swinging as some nightmarish darwinian zero sum game of victory and exclusion, when that’s exactly how their rampant insecurities cause them to perceive everything else? The people making these memes are exactly the type of un-self aware shitty relationship partner who, if their SO did leave them for a third, would absolutely chalk it up to the robust barbarian penis bewitching the weak-willed woman, especially if they were already right wing and predisposed to that kind of narrative.

      Also the phrase penis fascism is now in my thought cabinet

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        10 months ago

        Also the phrase penis fascism is now in my thought cabinet

        Best way I can describe my own lust and submission for a bigger peen lmao.

        But yeah really it comes down to chemistry with whoever you’re having sex with. Like sometimes size does matter but in the opposite sense, if you’re too small, I guess there’s an exception for someone used to bigger shlong and they’ve had trauma they’ve since fetishized. But usually the solution is to git gud at fingering, eating, caressing, and making out etc. And maybe shift focus from the sexual aspect of a relationship to more of the romantic aspect. If it can’t be helped and they need sexual satisfaction, figure out a solution between the two of y’all. Wether it’s penis sleeves or y’all are comfortable with swinging. Doesn’t have to be a weird zero sum game like incels and right-wingers make it out to be. It definitely just poisons the well in a sense and there’s this brainwormed game of dominance and submission at least in my experience with having a foursome with a straight dude, who wanted to be the ‘alpha’, meanwhile I didn’t care and just wanted everyone to cum. Hard.

        Also me and my partner did split up, she did leave me for a lover and is now married, but we were growing apart, not really being as considerate as we should’ve been with each other, I also did cheat on her with a dude

        personal recounting of sa

        that s.a.'d me. basically he was a roommate and I didn’t want to be homeless, look for a new roommate, be charged with assault (I have anger issues and have had people twist shit around) or have my gf murder him etc, and let him do what he wanted after I said no after several times while being buzzed and high and after the inciting incident I would sleep with him when beneficial to myself and the gf, or if he was particularly persistent and later when I wanted dick when me and the gf weren’t doing great, without having to worry about disease. Stopped after I couldn’t deal with the contradictions and couldn’t get any pleasure out of it. It was foolish and should’ve done better. I also don’t want sympathy just recounting everything to have y’all have an insight into my current mental state I suppose. So wish I could afford therapy right now, it’s been since 2018 if I may dox myself a bit more. Didn’t charge him with anything because he’s not violent or generally a bad guy, just a horny idiot, plus figured with how I later would sleep with him it would be contested. He at least admitted he was wrong and apologized and it made me feel better, but imo it doesn’t change a thing, because the harm was already done :::

        I don’t hold anything against her and honestly she’s better off without my unstable azz in her life. Plus the guy she left me for has, at least from what I was told (could be a lie not sure she would’ve lied about it considering she told me about a guy hung like a horse) an average sized peen. He’s just more put together mentally and financially and because of that they have a better relationship than what I could offer at the time. I def know he’s not stronger because he was slimmer than me and I feel as though I’m skinny enough as it is.

        Anyways waaaay too much info and sorry about that. But the narrative that it’s always a bigger guy is foolish, it can be so many reasons.

        Ummm don’t spam my inbox with messages about this please. Lmao. And no my penis fascism didn’t originate from this, I’ve always been a little bit of a size queen. But more of an intimate understanding of cnc did. I guess it did fuel some feelings related to cuckoldry because of a deeping self perception of weakness, helplessness and self loathing. debord-tired

        • keepcarrot [she/her]@hexbear.net
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          10 months ago

          Writing about politicising penis size, while rumours don’t line up with reality, there’s the barbarous big dicks stealing our women with their virile primitive energy, and the cunning small dicks plotting and scheming and being good at maths. It is only us, the middle dicked white men, who can lead the path forward.

          I don’t know how frequently this pops up in history, buy I’ve seen parallels here and there. I also don’t know where Arabs fall into that, since they’re both Asian and barbarous hordes.

          • Anne_Teefa@hexbear.net
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            10 months ago

            Hey whoa there bucko, I’m not one of these middle dicked hwite pipo, just not equipped with nuke. Plus I’ll have you know I’m a damn dirty Irish-American, Dad was fresh off the boat. Probably why I have a cuckold fetish baked in as fetishes are hereditary*, y’know since my ancestors were plowing their colonizers’ wives. Haha zing. Idk about hearing cuckoldry based around Sino phobia though. I’ve not cum across it owl-wink

            *(did a short browse on Google, it’s learned and hereditary but otherwise research is underfunded, makes sense though since I was cheated on but even before that was comfortable with fantasizing about my girl crush with my guy crush when I was young, to me it was especially ok and not at all weird since I knew they had previously been together but never went further than feeling around, and I definitely wanted to be with both of them separately and or together. And honestly fantasized a lot about my friends but never acted on any of it. I was a freshman in HS at the time, so idk if that’s normal or that was particularly pervy all I know is that I’m too gdmn bisexual. More completely unnecessary info dumping, she was the slimmest girl I had been into, and he pretty much solidified my bearish taste in men, especially when he put on her choker she left at his place as we were listening to music and shooting the shit just talking. [And no I’ll not delete this on the off chance you know exactly who I am and you’re reading this while lurking an extremely left wing community, surprised I’ve memory holed that entire interaction, whadaya gonna do, fuck me!? please do]) bottom-speak