I am currently on vacation and going to the beach sucks because I see these girls my age and think “Holy shit, I want to look like that.” But then I get heavy impostor syndrome. Maybe this is just me being attracted and wanting to be trans, so my brain makes it think it’s envious when it’s just attracted? So, how do you tell envy from attraction?
I think it would matter if I wanted to figure out whether I was trans or not. For some people it might not be that important to hammer down their gender identity, and nobody should feel an obligation to, but other people might find it personally important to figure out their identity instead of leaving it be as a question mark. I think that OP might be more of the latter kind of person who wants to figure it out.
Yeah I suppose the reading kinda changes based on how far along OP is in their gender journey lol