It doesn’t fucking matter what I do I’m playing some game with some old friends online and ten minutes later as I’m laying in bed I just feel more empty and lonely than I ever knew was even possible. I’m sorry for just making these posts and never replying to any of the messages. I don’t want online friends I want real friends. I want to smell people, hug people, kiss people, hear them breath, I want to feel someone next to me, I want to be touched in all the places I’ve never been touched before, I want to be tender to someone else I want to cry with someone else. I want to fall asleep next to someone, I want to wake up next to someone I want to feel their warmth but in the thirty years that I have lived so far that hasn’t happened and I just dont see how it will ever happen but I don’t want anything else out of life there’s no point to any of the rest of it if i can’t share it fully with other people. If this is what my life is going to be like I don’t want it
You need hobbies that will help you meet like-minded people. Think about what sort of things you like (gaming, gardening, dogs, biking) then find places near you where people meet up to talk about those things.
Then go! Maybe you won’t meet your besties there, or your future significant other, but it gets you out there and around other people. Relax (key point) and talk about the stuff you like with people who also like the stuff you like. Keep going to these meet-ups with the goal of just vibing. Do not feel pressured to make connections the first time. Vibe, man, vibe.
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