So, I am a minor, at this point almost 100% a trans woman and I sometimes suddenly have these urges when I am with either of my parents to tell them. I know they are transphobic and most likely wouldn’t accept me, but I still get this feeling and I hate it.
Sounds like occasionally you have the urge to be yourself with those around you. No shame in that. I’m sorry you can’t atm, but hey it’s not forever.