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Cake day: May 26th, 2024

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  • I never really paid for any of it; most of it was on my parents dime when I was a child and they were trying to ‘fix’ me. There’s a 25 year gap where I had great insurance and thought i didn’t need help (just alcohol, drugs, women) so didn’t see anyone. Then i got incredibly depressed, couldn’t get out of bed, lost my job and got on medicaid. Medicaid has been covering my therapy across 3 states for the last 7 years. After getting fired as a patient by a first year counselor his boss suggested i try to get into the trauma center and after an 8 month wait i got the first actual help in my life.

    Almost all the other therapists would get utterly hung up on suicidal ideation and intrusive thoughts even when i explained to them that they were managed. they just couldn’t hear me and because that was all they would focus on nothing ever progressed. I tried lying but it’s hard to build a connection and trust that way.

    My trauma therapist, like, treats it like no deal. Which to me it isn’t, the thoughts have been there for decades and i’m not going to act on them. When I mention them she doesn’t focus on them at all and subsequently I was able to get better.

    When we first started doing sessions years ago it would literally be me pretty much ugly crying for most of the hour. Couple years before I made it through a session without crying.

    At our last session I was laughing, joking, happy, thriving, and crying but they were joyful tears.

    It took me over 40 years to get the help I needed and many black nights and many empty fifths but i’m still here baby and I’m living my best life now! Don’t give up!



  • I suffered a lot of trauma as a child, physical mental and emotional abuse from both of my families and at school.

    I saw dozens of psychiatrists, counselors, therapists and psychologists. Got absolutely nothing out of it.

    Eventually i found my way to a Trauma Treatment Center where they specialize in fucked up little nuggets like me.

    And then my life changed because I got the help I needed and was able to unwind a lot of my problems and develop coping tools for what I couldn’t repair.

    I’m very happy that i kept at it, my life feels very good now and I have friends and community and love.

    It’s never too late, never give up on yourself.







  • I know you’re joshing but the helmet IS designed to break easily. This lets it absorb and redirect the force of the impact so effectively. Cars call it ‘crumple zones’ but it’s the same thing.

    You’re supposed to replace most helmets any time you drop them even if there is no visual damage for this reason. The dropped helmet may now have cracks you can’t see in the foam below the shell and in any subsequent crashes your skull may end up taking more force than it should.



  • the suspension is barely loaded, I’m guessing AI or Art Vehicle and that’s all a shell. I owned a work truck with an 8 foot bed and when it was loaded the tire would be way up in the wheel well more. Could be some super suspension but my money is it’s not really what we are seeing. The suspension being perfectly level with the ground makes me think AI as the vehicle is designed to be level with the rear loaded. With that front loaded down too the nose should be pitched down a bit.