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2 days agoshidding fire out my doodoo ass good thing i have the day off
Sol_Tradguy [they/them, he/him]
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Cake day: January 2nd, 2025
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i don’t want to be an uncritical cheerleader for my party but what has got to be one of the single stupidest smears against PSL is that we’re cop collaborators for getting permits for peaceful protests & for having a police liaison.
yes. we should absolutely risk unprepared masses of people getting arrested at what are basically recruitment & awareness-building parades.
infantile!!!
i think i made a new friend at my new-ish job! we walk in the same direction home and have previously kinda bolted away to not be around other people anymore at the end of the day, but recently we kinda organically decided to walk partway home together without explicitly discussing it and took it at a leisurely pace because we’ve come to enjoy each others company :3 we both share some creative outlets and i think she’s more normie progressive lib/not completely coherent politically but i’ve talked about my Party work with her & she seems to think what i’m doing is cool.
uh oh
she’s also pretty cute
but there are some things that make me think it wouldn’t be a good long-term love connection fit so the risk/reward calculus is not in my favor i fear…
“you shouldn’t change for other people it has to be for yourself!”
this advice ranges from atomized individualist dogshit, to meaning more specifically “you should not change for a single romantic partner (or otherwise singular important relationship in your life) (especially if you yourself don’t agree with the changes)”
Like isn’t “wanting to have better relationships” a good motivator?
fuck yeah it is, gets my seal of approval
one way or another im going to shit mwhere i eat again
it is my dastiny
u may say i ruined my job and 8 motnsh of my life once, i say that i built character (cadre even?) through struggle
8·7 days agoah so a finding enough baseline decency to stay sane while you’re stuck with this person type of beat
i have to ask, whats the end game here with
girl??
4·11 days agono i know, it’s okay i hope i wasn’t too hard on you
it’s just a general trend in the online left that’s bugged me for a while, and i thought it was a good opportunity & might be helpful to you, me, and anyone reading this thread to maybe explore/clarify exactly why i find it problematic in more detail. kinda as a collective learning/growth thing, idk
i feel like you don’t do a lot of scenario-based bit posts and you should do more, this one made me laugh! i associate u more with unchained stream of consciousness
i want to be a piece of shit i want to get worse i want to be more and more and more of this type of animal anymore
dating in organizing struggle sesh lets go im really gonna try and make this shit happen this time
weird hexbear prudes vs the like countless married couples in a lot of actual orgs lets fucking goooooooooooooooo
just kidding i dont have the energy for struggle sessions i just like to be a piece of shit rascal and stir the pot then dip
(but also uh imagine being a socialist and thinking the only acceptable means of dating are atomized compartmentalized venues outside your actual community)
same bestie :')
pop psych, maybe overstepping
hey bruv i don;'t mean to be an attachment theory evangelist cuz that shit tends to be super annoying but have you looked up avoidant attachment styles (or attachment theory in general)? we’ve been in touch about this nascent romance for a long time now and this does sound like some avoidant-meets-avoidant-attachment psychological drama playing out. it might help you make sense of things to look into it, but also if this was too much for the public forum plz let me know and i will delete the post and maybe we can pick up in DMs? (i am tipsy tn lol)
hey comrade, i know you already apologized, but i still want to point to this post as an example of why i take such issue with casual DoomJerking:
a good chunk of the people on this website you know and (hopefully) care about are in the PSL, even if you don’t know it. These are the people you’re talking so flippantly about being sent to do brutal slave labor for trying to create a better world - and on strong average, it’s way harder to talk about these things in such a detached and offhand manner if you’re actually in the crosshairs and taking the punches and risks of state violence like that. now, i don’t want to make any presumptions about what kind of irl organizing you are or aren’t a part of, but DoomJerking does imply a degree of comfortable, detached distance from the matter that really rubs me the wrong way. this is me and about half of the people i love you’re talking about when you make posts like this - it’s not an abstraction, these are flesh and blood human beings who have inspired each other & created bonds of love with each other that are hard to overstate. please just try to be mindful of this, even when you are feeling deeply depressed and disillusioned with current conditions (which is completely understandable).
again, i know you did apologize and post a more optimistic sentiment afterward and this is a bigger trend than just you. i just thought it was a good opportunity to hammer out some issues with this kind of thing (which goes way beyond you or this single post of yours so don’t feel too bad) in more detail.
vyvanse continues to be overall positive but i definitely need to adjust my caffeine intake down to compensate being on a different stimulant
3·19 days agoI don’t feel especially drawn to being a woman, although being male is very ehh honestly.
i don’t really resonate with the egg-crack language b/c it feels very binary trans centric to me (maybe that’s just internalized phobia though, i really don’t know), but it took me a while to realize cis men and cis women don’t generally feel indifferent toward masculinity and femininity respectively, and that made me consider whether i might be on the agender spectrum. it’s just something to consider - honestly, when you get into the realm of “very gender-nonconforming cis guy” and “some flavor of enby,” the line gets kind of murky and arbitrary (in a freeing - not minimizing - kind of way, in that gender can really be whatever Feels Right). to elaborate, someone in this thread already brought up how being cis-but-gay opens up so, so much more variance in socially acceptable gender expression, and a lot of more outwardly queer gay dudes are probably more nonconforming than I am and are comfortable at “he/him” whereas I’m not, so there truly is a very vibes-based, it-is-what-you-feel dimension to all this.
i do think immediately saying “hehe eggposting” isn’t very respectful of your individual journey and falls into the trap a lot of queer people do where they project their personal self discovery process onto others as some universal roadmap, and can lean into gender essentialist bullshit. i’ve also never been a fan of the “cis people don’t think about gender, if you’re thinking about it a lot you’re trans” line because, while it may contain a grain of truth, i think everyone should be encouraged to think about gender intentionally. e.g., you really think a super cishet gymbro isn’t chasing some version of gender euphoria trying to get swole?? (also, certain anxiety disorders cause you to obsessively interrogate questions of identity even if the experiences of those identities clearly don’t line up with your personal experience (iykyk))
male dating/sex issues, if ur not into reading that kinda stuff u dont gotta
i made a half-serious post a few weeks ago about how it’s genuinely kinda hard for hetero dudes to get laid if they fall outside a fairly narrow range of conventional attractiveness but that this is a fine problem to have. i realize this could have come off a little incel-adjacent and i should clarify, i wasn’t thinking exclusively (or even primarily) in terms of physical attractiveness (it helps ofc, especially on dating apps) but also (and probably more importantly) conventional social attractiveness.
I.e. if you’re not someone who is good at performing a very specific gendered script of courtship (good at initiating convos, expressing interest in a way that is confident-but-respectful, being in general not just confident but confident in a way that is more extroverted and socially visible, etc.) So if you’re shy, socially anxious, have low social battery, are on the spectrum, etc, you’re more likely to fall outside of this script which makes this kind of thing difficult (even if you are broadly good looking but perhaps in a way that’s more niche).
but this is a fine problem to have because not everyone is built to be a slut and that is OK, sex-having being tied to anyone’s worth as a person is fucked (but especially w/ mascs b/c of how it ties into toxic masculinity and all that). dudes who are shy or introverted or socially anxious or very sensitive or w/e are probably more likely to be relationship guys on average anyway (ofc there’s variance here) and if you’re seeking a relationship specifically this all matters less (b/c in that case there’s a lot more latitude for acquaintances & friends to kinda organically grow into more if it’s meant to be, so it’s more important to just stay broadly socially active and involved with your community or communities).
(shit is very very different in queer spaces from what i can tell)
my middling posting lately is good opsec, actually
i’ll never post such a banger that im reluctant to account reset
the el salvador shit really feels like looking directly into the eye of evil & it challenging you to fortify your will & sanity & sense of decency & goodwill to not completely crumble at the alien depths of its depravity. im scared for my friends and comrades and to a lesser extent myself.
life is too short and full of brutality to not love yourself and everyone around you. please please do that to whatever extent you can.
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MANKIND, BE VIGILANT; WE LOVED YOU.