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10 hours agofeel like i should switch up the post-punk/goth/alternative rock roster i have for karaoke to appease others but on the other hand a dude likes what they like 
JD_Vyvanse [he/him, they/them]
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Cake day: May 12th, 2025
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been listening to Endsong by The Cure a lot lately, idk.
curhsposting efforpost/accountability-post
i have a rlly big crush on my new gf and i want to put as much effort into this relationship as possible to make it the best it can be and i want to be as accountable to her as possible and i hope/think the feeling is mutual. but i also recognize that focusing too much on the long-term horizon can take you out of what you have in your hands in the moment and it’s important to practice gratitude in the present otherwise you’re gonna be fucking miserable and all the inherent joys of life are going to pass you by without you realizing it and before you know it you’re going to be closer to oblivion than not and will feel like you haven’t had enough love or fullness in your life because you could never stop to slow down and breathe and really (i mean really) see what was in front of you.
trhe absolute moral & spiritual wasteland that is hollywood & seeking a career within it + the utter despair & lack of inspiration i feel at sitting in front of a computer when i’m forced to do that so much already has put my desire to write screenplays on life support after finishing a couple. what do? do i find another medium to write in (fiction, poetry)? or should i just thug it out and write in the medium i’ve built a skillset in anyway because it does something for my soul/mind? making actually doing something with it measurable-career-wise a nice to have but in no way an expectation?
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think there name was Fire Keeper or some shit when they wuh born, but then they kept on chainging it. i dunno, Tone…
that would be a massive security liability, the state is already black bagging people just for op-eds.
i usually skip my adhd meds today b/c of lighter workload reasons but they sent me to cover at a different job site today b/c of repairs at my usual one & they clearly don’t know what to do with me and i have no idea what’s going on here and honestly i think i’m in one of the shallower layers of hell (and if this had happened just like two days later my annual leave probation would be over so i could have just taken a day off with a use-it-or-lose-it leave day). fuck this malaise nightmare reality aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
srry i just wanted to vent & gripe hahaha i love being neurodivergent it’s so lit
gf met the comrades at a film screening tonight & it was extremely sweet and the vibes were immaculate :‘) everyone got along and honestly it felt really beautiful in a transcending loneliness and atomization kind of way :’)
do what you gotta do, but instead of blocking you can also consider just replying with “disengage” and report them for harassment (if they ignore the disengage that’s report-worthy too). don’t want my comment sniped for metaposting so keeping it broad, but seems the site is having an issue with very new and/or few-to-no comment accounts stirring shit.
i’m not sure about federated accounts, but i know within hexbear you just can’t see the blocked person’s posts and that’s it. they can not only see yours, but still comment on them. something i’ve wanted to bring up formally but the dedicated meta channels seem kinda dead or at least very slow/low activity.
on the one hand the Witch King of Angmar was a Based Martyr (slain by woke DEI despite best efforts to fight teh SJW menace)
on the other hand they definitely did pronouns (Witch KING???)
very dialectics, i discuss this with the boys at the ACP often
i guess this si where the critical in supportt comes in…
hell yeah big s/o to a journey of self understanding & acceptance
lol no ur all good it’s nbd. i was going for a like unhinged stream of consciousness vibe/poking light fun at how much we spoiler tag posts (obv a good thing for srs content warnings)
theory nerd shit
ive seen interesting debates on the internet here and there about whether it makes sense to do a cadre org vs mass org at this very-clearly-not-yet revolutionary period in amerika (i remember it coming up in a trueanon thread a while back about someone who drifted away from PSL in part b/c of this tactical disagreement). im in PSL so yall know where my biases are, but im curious to hear what the arguments for the latter organizing form are assuming the cadre org also does coalition work that goes way broader than cadre membership?
yeah i did it to be silly, is datingposting stuff we should usually spoilertag? i can amend if so lol
EDIT: i’ll fix it just in case/because why not
c/dating posting
okay relaysh isn’t flushed just in a precarious spot & dealing with its first major rupture. me & nu-partner both got shit to unlearn (some similar some different) this all a process but we r both communicating and showing a willignness to change
always
this part comes from the fact thaat all i do is post b/c i have no life
i’m always bad posting b/c i’m a certified baddie
the flipside of the “skipped my meds i’m in hell” post i made a number of days ago is that my “hyperfocus on the one thing i found interesting that day” kicked in and i read like 60 pages of Lord of the Rings to escape and honestly i think i fw this shit heavy. it all feels cozier than i remembered back in middle school (ages ago) but i’m still exclusively with the hobbits where i left off (traversing the old forest) so haven’t fully pivoted from “sequel to The Hobbit” to “epic creation myth of England” territory yet so maybe that accounts for it. (pls no crucify me tolkien heads if i am misunderstanding any of this i’m a newb)