CarbonConscious [he/him]

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Cake day: 2023年9月15日

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  • I feel like all the magic has flowed down into the smaller regional burns at this point. Those are obviously hit or miss depending on your local scene, and you don’t get quite the same huge community pieces as the big burn, but there’s usually plenty enough to keep you busy just checking everything out for the whole event anyways, let alone a thousand times that if you really get involved with volunteering/organizing. Hell in a previous state I lived in, there were a few smaller local burns and then a bigger state-wide one, so even then you could kinda pick and choose how big and crazy of a thing you wanted to attend/do.

    I need to start looking at local options around here…



  • Maybe! I don’t think it’s so much about blaming people for their own suffering, but more of a recognition that suffering is just another state of being, and in a larger context that being is a part of everything else that is.

    In a broader sense I don’t think that mindfulness practice needs to directly lead to nihilism, but it certainly can without an underpinning of philosophy that can make sense of what’s left after dismissing the subjective as the only truth.

    Much like the monk that remains seated while self-immolating, it is possible to remain mindful and even euphoric in even the most extreme forms of suffering, but that said it would be disgusting to try and proffer that example as a way to dismiss the suffering of others in a current state. “hey that guy could do it, so why don’t you just sit and be one and then you won’t have any problems?” Of course that is rediculous. But it is a practice that can lead to reduced suffering, and it is available to everyone. But it’s much like the tech bros that tell people suffering from poverty to “just learn to code”. Like yeah, it’s an option, and a thing that can help some people, but just because it’s a thing that worked for you doesn’t mean it’s going to fix everyone else’s problems, especially not right here in the now when that suffering is happening.

    Anyways, your last line is real. It’s part of why I got off track of a regular practice years ago - it really did feel weird to be disconnected from people in that way. I felt like Dr Manhattan, being tired of these people and their problems, as goofy as that sounds. I’d like to think that’s not how everyone reacts, maybe that was just my young adult narcissism in action.

    In another way though, it was almost like everyone in the world was on fire, and I had just jumped in a lake - why is everyone out there still running around screaming in pain, and insisting that I was the weird one for being wet?

    There’s probably a balance there somewhere. I’m not really sure where I’m going with this lol, but I appreciate your viewpoint is what I’m trying to say.





  • In all seriousness, it is a little like that! One thing I found during regular mindfulness practice is that you get to this place of all around contentedness, and you start embracing the oneness of all things and the impermanence of subjectivity, and all of a sudden stuff starts to matter a lot less. And like, that’s great when you’re dealing with a lot of anxiety and depression and stress, since it’s a lot less crushing, but also I found that it also killed some of the drive that led to action, as there was no urgent need to escape all of those feelings. It helped to a certain degree though, since that stuff also got in the way just as or more often than it was motivating.

    And in that way, it was also a little alienating from other people, since all of their petty dramas and overblown concerns just felt very petty and overblown, but you could tell that they were truly and deeply invested in them. It was like, do you not realize that none of that (or truly anything) really matters?

    So yeah, in some ways I would call deep mindfulness practice a little bit masturbatory (in a mostly good way). But still, very little to do with cum.


  • They are like, so close to catching on to something here. You can feel so good!

    To quote my favorite Zammuto track:

    Your blood pumps through your heart

    And flows to the other parts of your body

    Let yourself feel your own heart

    Beating and pumping

    You know what a heart looks like

    That good feeling is always there

    You can feel so good

    And it’s true! You can learn how to capture those good feelings that are usually only fleeting in life and harness them, and make them available to yourself at any time. It’s really powerful!

    But it’s really more a trick of like, TM or mindfulness practice. It has very little to do with cum.






  • Yeah I feel this. My dreams are usually very realistic and very mundane. It fucka me up because I’ll dream about planning an event or doing a project at work or something, and then I wake up and feel like I have a bunch of stuff on my todo list, but none of it is actually real. It’s not nightmare-bad, but it is goddamn annoying.

    When I was a much more regular user, that mostly went away and it was great. Now I only rarely get to have any and it’s boring-town dream city, basically every night. Looking forward to recreational sales in this area soon.


  • Seriously, I’m always telling people about this. The most adament speeders are always the “fuck the government”, you can’t tell me what to do, come-and-take-it types, and it just baffles me because like, yeah, they will come and take it; in fact they love to!

    You are giving the pigs a free pass to fully legally and justifiably pull you over any time they feel like it.

    Obviously they’ll still pull over anyone at any time and retroactively make up a reason, but at least then they are starting on shaky ground, and you’ve got a way better chance of beating any charges later.

    If you hate the pigs so much, why would you make their job so easy? Especially if you’re riding dirty in any way, then that just multiplies everything above a thousand times. And naturally, those that are the most cavalier about doing that always seems to be the ones that love speeding the most.




  • Definitely! They’ve got a lot of understated but really cool instrumentation on this one. I tried drumming along to a few of the tracks, and it’s easy enough to get a decent groove, but the subtleties they’re actually playing are just completely wild. Like a jazz drummer just going nuts and doing his own thing, but just softly and real gently mixed. It’s pretty impressive.




  • Also the confrontation thing, yeah big time. Moving up means more crushing downwards, which feels bad no matter what. Either somebody genuinely fucked up, and it’s some degree of your fault for not training them right or catching it sooner, or they really did what they thought was right (and may have actually been the right thing) but a customer is mad or your bosses are mad or another department is mad, and you have to discipline them anyways.

    You also have to fire people, which is probably the worst interpersonal interaction you can ever have at work, let alone in most areas of life. Again sometimes it’s fully justified, and it still sucks, but plenty of times it’s something like a layoff where it’s “nothing personal, just the bottom line ya know”, or it’s that the bosses decided that this person needs to be fired for some arbitrary reason you may not even agree with, but you still have to be the one to pull the trigger and ruin this person’s day/year. Additionally, you usually can’t talk about the reasons with anyone else, so you have to field questions from the rest of your team that are usually good and valid, but you have to explain the away with vague corpo-speak and can’t really tell them what’s up.

    So ya know, if any of that sounds fun, I mean, get checked out, because yikes.