We had to say goodbye to our cat, Maeko, this past Friday. Vet confirmed that her kidney function was dropping, and she had lost over half her body weight in the past two weeks. Meds might have stabilized her but wouldn’t have given her much more than another month, and at reduced quality. I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep since before Thursday, I keep waking up and reaching for her.

She didn’t require sedation, so we got to say goodbye to the real her and not someone halfway gone. And she got to go in my lap, getting her belly rubbed just the way she liked and purring. But I’m still hurting, even though I’m glad she doesn’t hurt anymore.

Just trying to focus on the positives, like how our eleven week old daughter rolled herself over this evening, has a huge smile for me all the time, and watches my every move when I’m in the room with her no matter what else is happening.